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gosh, it hasn't rained like this is days. i missed the rain. rain always makes me happy. it's like this wonderful waterfall, descending from the heavens, to wash away all the negativeness in the world. and the pitter patter sounds just makes one soul at peace. ah, the rain.
last night there were two drunkards downstairs my house making this big racket. i peered out my window to take a closer look. apparently many other people had also peered out their doors from the opposite block to take a closer look as well. i wasn't really watching the drunkards per-say, more like watching the people who were watching the drunkards. they had really funny expressions on their faces. one was horror, another was "again?" etc etc... i love my estate. we're all so nosey.
i miss hanging out with all the akltg people. everytime we're together we're so HIGH. like we all got drunk or something. i love gorgia, and alicia, and pearlyn, and joey... ohhh! that malay guy! the what's-his-name!! fariss? or something like that. hahahaha... and i sense a conspiracy coming along between alicia and bo hui! the two of them ah. i think most of you have no idea what i'm talking about. it doesn't matter. i just wish that all of my friends were like that, motivated, high, positive, optimistic, and fun. friends that edge each other on, and compliment each other.
it's the same with av alumni. there isn't a hirachy of sorts, neither is there the "better" people. it's just wonderful fun everytime we gather together, even with all the digressions! hahahaha. i love av alumni. i just hope that we stay peaceful without any internal conflict.
i guess it's just like what ade said. i want to feel appreciated by my friends. i know i'm not in slamd, or at least, i don't feel like i am. that's why i turn to other groups of friends. friends that i can rely on for moral support. friends that will give me the push. friends that won't put me down, who won't judge me, who won't assume things about me. then we can push our limits together. and soar together.
but slamd, slamd. it holds a special place in my heart that no other groups of friends can take away.perhaps it is cause my secondary school days was to most enjoyable time of my life. i wish we could be really united, not just ade and mut going around shopping, dragon galaventing off somewhere, and satan completely disappearing... we were once so close. where is that bond now? sigh, people move on... that cannot be helped. we cannot change each other, we can only change ourselves. that is one important lesson i learnt. the hard way, actually.
well, on a lighter note, i've been this singing freak the whole week after i could talk again. my favourite song to sing has to be barry manilow's one voice. it's a really nice song to sing. i sing it loud in the middle of the streets and people give me weird looks but
i don't care!
i love to sing. mwee. and i lost 1kg after cycling for six km today and four km yesterday. yahoo!
Love, lixximajig : 16:36