20041008
breakdown of prelim grades
Eng-A2 [72.75]
Chi-B3 [o level]
Lt-B3 [69]
BB-B3 [can't remember]
CC-C6 [51]
AM-C6 [50]
EM-D7 [49]
how can i fucking fail emath? i never fail e maths! i'm so fucking stupid. i need to up a grade for english, for lit, for bio. i need to up three grades for chem and two for a maths. and my bloody fucking e maths i need to up a bloody five grades.
it's good that i blog now. my blog title reminded me of what's more important. focusing on my outcome. not wallowing in self pity and being depressed. E + R = O. must remember.
i don't understand how some people can spend so much time studying and not get the grade that they want. i know effort does not equal to result, at least, not all the time, but with the amount of energry spent on studying, shouldn't it pay off somehow? perhaps it all lies in concentration. if you spend three hours concentrating while studying, you get much more in your head than eight hours of constant floundering.
i think i need alcohol. i hate my grades. they were fine for the first few days... but... they didn't have to get worse did they?
i must focus on my outcome. i must focus why i want this damn outcome.
Eng: A1
Math: A2
Bio: A2
Chem: B3
Lit: A2
A Maths: B4
1. must not let my fucktard of a ex maths tutor [from NJC. the hypocrites school.] say "i told you so".
2. must not let my mother say "i told you so"
3. must not let other classes look down on purity people.
4. must get into temasek poly visual comm.
5. must be able to tell AKLTG and become asst. coach.
6. must not get lower than certain people.
7. must not let pple look down on me.
8. must gain respect from some stupid idoits.
9. must gain moolah from parents.
10. must thrash competition from six pointers that wanna go poly.
ade, i need a jump start/butt-kicker. can we talk?
Love, lixximajig : 15:04