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i'm scared to utter those three precious words. especially when it comes right down from my heart.

i guess because it's something so special to me, that i hold so deep, i'm afraid letting the world see. i'm slowly coming out of my shell. but at the same time, i become vulnerable. that is why i'm afraid to let my true feelings show. i'm scared to say something wrong, or do something stupid to the people i hold dear. thinking through a bit, i find it's more than just this, but i cannot pinpoint exactly why i am so insecure of myself, and so gaurded when it comes to sharing my feelings.

i know it's stupid to be afraid of something, and not know why, but i just am.

it's not that i don't mean it when i say i love le james, le ade, and le dragon. it's just a different kind of love. and the one that is most precious to me, i am scared to show. maybe it's because i've been hurt too many times, and have put my defences up.

thank you so much for loving me. i don't think you understand how much you've done for me. i've grown, i've become a better person in so many ways, just by being with you.

i hope that in the near future, you'll be able to hear those words coming from me too.


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Let's read the trees and their Autumn leaves,
As they fall like a dress undone
At the end of Summers, love will find lovers
Who need the shadows of a winter sun


Don't tell me you're leaving we can hide in the evening
It's getting darker than it should
If we read the leaves as they blow in the breeze
Would it stop us now, my love


Time enough for hard questions
Time enough for all our fears
Time is tougher than we both know yet,
Time enough for tears