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life has been pretty harsh to me lately. there's nothing happy happening. and i hate that. i thrive on happy moments in life, and happy memories. but lately, everything seems so grim and serious. and not one encouraging word has been spoken. i wish sometimes some people would see that i've chosen to go through this path of life, and all i need is some people to keep encouraging me, and keep me going. that's all i need. that's all i ever need.
if life is not happy, then i'd seriously rather not live it.
school's starting tmr, and i'm really scared, sorta. i don't know what to expect, what kind of trouble i'm going to get into since i didn't turn up for the orientation, and what kind of people they'll have. i'm scared i'm not able to cope with the lessons and everything. those who know me well know that i'm not that proficient in design, or art. i'm afraid that school will also bring down my level of intellect (more importantly, my english), and maturity (not like i'm very mature now, but still).
i'm in my mother's office currently, and i've done all my work (the accounts, basically), and now i'm bored. my phone's out of batt and i feel suicidal. everything that has happened lately really brought me down. i don't feel loved.
nie: my feet are the fattest in my family. i grew up thinking i had big feet. i can't wear any of the shoes my mother buys for herself and my sister cos they're all so tiny. it's only after i met you guys then i realised my feet aren't that big. glad you like the picture (:
Love, lixximajig : 15:53