a crazy world we live in, much.

20050527

using the library's computer to type this out.

the first week of school is over, and i'm just about dead. i think i put too much stress on
myself to do well that it becomes much too overwhelming for me. i need to get my coach
mentality back again, and i need to really do some serious managing of time. sure,
my timetable might be pretty slacked, but really six hours of lecture (which i think
are actually tuts, but they just call it lecture) is really no joke. not only that, we have
truckloads of hmk to do, that cannot be done at home.

examples? for my marketing class, go to bedok and take photos of shops and their surrounding
areas. for my basic photography class, go to a photo exhibit and write a report of 750 words
(i would write about the flowers, but really, i need to go again to have a deeper feel about
it, and it has ended).

you know in secondary school, jc and perhaps some other courses, you don't need to pass all
your tests because what matters at the end of the day is the major exam, be it o levels or a
levels. but in poly (design) you need to pass everything to graduate, whether you like it or
not. i need to push myself hard if i really want to excel. not only that, i need to do a lot
of other types of practices because as compared to everyone else around, i really don't have
that basic skills or like drawing and such.

for basic photography, we are required to purchase a SLR camera. sigh. i have to spend a lot
of money on supplies and stuff. and i feel so bad asking my parents for more money, because
my poly fees are already very much expensive. sigh. more stress yet again.

i guess it's good, because it trains us (me) to deal with the stress that i would handle in
the working world, where i have to give my 100% and do my best to score the A's in the clients
eyes for every single job i take. am i maturing? i don't know. i sure hope i am.

i'm not too concerned with the people in poly, besides some who are less outspoken and can't
really speak english that well. they're all very nice people, and i guess as freshies we're
all very shy at first.

do i doubt any minute that i made the wrong choice of poly? no. this place doesn't teach just
the skills behind design, it prepares us for the real world and develops us as well rounded
individuals. that's why i love it here (plus the really cool library). it's like what my
photography lecturer (who btw, is a really cool dude) said, "it is your previlege to study
in temasek design school."

Love, lixximajig : 10:27