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today in basic photography, we proccessed film!! urgh. it's so scary with all the chemicals (which are pretty much toxic and deadly) all around. there's this room where you take out the film... and it's 99% dark, meaning, you put your fingers in front of your face and you can't see it. the darkroom has a red light in it, so in the end it's still not as dark.
i'm gonna be doing my film proccessing at home. it's much too scary to do it alone in school. that means, i'm gonna bring back all the stupid chemicals! and a measuring jug.
the week was tiring, and next week's another tiring week.
i miss slamd!!! you know, i don't think i fit in school at all. it's like.. everyone there's the "popular" kind of people (and the "poser" type of people). i act a bit like that... but i don't feel comfortable. i don't feel like i can open up myself to these people. bad thing is, i can't "be myself" and don't care if people accept me or not, because of the countless group work we have to do.
sigh.
work work work.
Love, lixximajig : 17:47