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I don't know why sometimes I feel that the entire world hates me. They do, I just know it. It has always been like that. The world hates me. I hate myself.

I hate always doing things for people, and I barely get anything back. It's so tiring, you know? It's not like I do it expecting people to give something back, no, I do it because I want to. But in the end, when the other party does nothing, I still feel terrible.

I hate I hate I hate myself.

I hate being all happy all the time, especially when I'm not. I hate having to pretend that everything's fine and dandy, that I'm not upset with anything. Some people can really be so tactless at times, you know? And it especially hurts when you consider that person a good friend, and actually care about what that person says.

Don't bother about me. I think I'm having my mood swings again. Bloody effing hormones. I hate myself.

Love, lixximajig : 09:28

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Let's read the trees and their Autumn leaves,
As they fall like a dress undone
At the end of Summers, love will find lovers
Who need the shadows of a winter sun


Don't tell me you're leaving we can hide in the evening
It's getting darker than it should
If we read the leaves as they blow in the breeze
Would it stop us now, my love


Time enough for hard questions
Time enough for all our fears
Time is tougher than we both know yet,
Time enough for tears